Weight Goal

So I made a goal for myself to lose 12 pounds in 4 weeks. I started on February 24th, and I will weigh myself every week to track my progress. So I will post an update this Thursday.

I WILL lose 12 pounds by March 24th!

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Trying to be positive....

...but everywhere I go there are pregnant women, and women with babies and little kids, and facebook friends posting ultrasound pics, and belly pics, etc. It all gets a little overwhelming sometimes. I'm currently on CD6 right now, and I hate it. I hate waiting for my fertile days. And I can ovulate anywhere between CD14 and CD21, so it's really frustrating. It's hard to not think about TTC during these days.

Also, today I decided it would be a good idea to get exercise by running up and down my stairs. I realized just how out of shape I am, and it made me feel like crap. I seriously could only do it for like 30 seconds and then I was tired.

On a positive note, I have a promising lead on a new job, which makes me very happy! AND, I'm getting my hair cut today! YAY!

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11dpo (well technically 12dpo)

This is driving me nuts!!!!!! If you read my previous post, you would know of my symptoms. Well as of right now, I have horrible heartburn and my boobs hurt even more. ARG!
And I told myself I wouldn't POAS this time. I would wait to miss AF, and IF that happened, then and only then would I test. Well SURPRISE! I couldn't wait. So I tested approx. 30 min ago, and lucky me BFFN!!!!
So now I'm going to to go bed.
The sooner I go to sleep, the sooner I will wake up and discover AF, so I don't have to suffer with the waiting anymore.
Argity arg arg

101 Things in 1001 Days

So I took this idea from a couple of other people. I started my list on the Day Zero website. It is a list of 101 things I am trying to accomplish in 1001 days. So here it is:

1. Buy a new car
2. Clean out all of the closets in my house
3. Learn Portuguese
4. Make a retirement plan
5. Take a photo of the same place every month for year and then turn it into a calendar for the next year
6. Donate blood
7. Write a letter to myself to open in 10 years
8. Get a tattoo
9. Watch 26 movies I've never seen starting with each letter of the Alphabet (A, P)
10. Comment on 50 random blogs
11. No fast food for a month
12. Go horseback riding
13. Have a baby
14. Read 100 books
15. Do some volunteer work
16. Get a passport
17. Go to Las Vegas
18. Sing karaoke at a bar
19. Stop biting my nails
20. Visit the Grand Canyon
21. Graduate College
22. Lose 70 lbs
23. Take a photo of myself every week for a year
24. Go to a Roller Derby
25. Document one month of my life in photographs
26. Go to bed every night before midnight for an entire month
27. Take a road trip with friends
28. Buy a good camera
29. Cut my debt by 1/3.
30. Host a cookie exchange
31. Try at least one new recipe a month
32. Grow a vegetable garden
33. Read the Bible cover to cover
34. Write a love letter to my husband
35. Watch every James Bond film
36. Give up pop for 3 months
37. Host a themed costume party
38. Get a new job
39. Write a poem
40. Pay off my credit cards
41. Have fruit for breakfast everyday for a week
42. Buy a pair of heels
43. Listen to 26 songs I've never listened to starting with each letter of the alphabet
44. Learn how to say "I love you" in 25 different languages
45. Go to a psychic
46. Start collecting something
47. Do 5 random acts of kindness
48. Have at least $5000 in savings
49. Eat 3 things I've never tried before
50. Finish a 500+ piece jigsaw
51. Decorate my bedroom
52. Get First Aid and CPR certified
53. Travel out of the country to somewhere other than the US
54. Learn to say thank you in 10 languages
55. Make a list of 101 things that make me happy
56. Do a walk for a cause
57. Influence a person to make a Day Zero list
58. Write a song about someone and sing it to them
59. Have a dinner by candle light
60. Send flowers to someone
61. Go to Portugal
62. Eliminate non-fitting clothing from my wardrobe
63. Get a new dog
64. Get a new pet other than dog or cat
65. Make at least $1000/month with Mary Kay
66. Eat at 10 new restaurants
67. Go through all boxes that are still not unpacked
68. Have a garage sale
69. Get Killer spayed
70. Change address on EVERYTHING
71. Change last name on EVERYTHING
72. Put new flooring in living room
73. Buy new bedroom furniture
74. Buy new living room furniture
75. Organize kitchen cupboards and drawers
76. Build deck and patio
77. Donate clothes I haven't worn in 2 years
78. Save $5 for every task I complete
79. Watch all of IMDB'S Top 250 Movies
80. Make a wish at 11:11 on 11/11/11
81. Go to an Infertility Support group
82. Decorate the whole house
83. Get acupuncture
84. Call my grandparents at least 30 times
85. Go on at least 140 dates with my husband (1/140)
86. Hang out with friends at least 70 times (5/70)
87. Do 30 min of exercise at least 140 times (11/140)
88. Take Killer for a walk at least 140 times (1/140)
89. Write a new blog entry at least 140 times (8/140)
90. Catch up with my sisters at least 30 times (2/30)
91. Go to bed before 2am at least 280 times (9/280)
92. Wake up before 9am at least 280 times (7/280)
93. Eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner all in one day at least 280 times (2/280)
94. Cook supper at least 280 times (1/280)
95. Make breakfast in bed for my Husband
96. Plan a romantic surprise for my Husband
97. Make breakfast for my husband and I at least 70 times
98. Make a youtube video of me singing
99. Keep house clean for a whole month
100. Cook dinner for Mom
101. Cook dinner for inlaws

Let's see how much I can accomplish.

Finished
Partially Finished (?/?)
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Symptom Checker

Ok so I'm at 11 dpo and my luteal phase is usually 10 or 11 days. This is where we're at:
Nausea? Check.
Sore boobs? Check.
Tired? Check.
Pregnant? Probably not.
Why? Check symptoms below.

Cramps? Check.
Moodiness? Check.
Drop in temp? Check.

So I'm pretty sure this cycle was a bust. :(

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Freaking, stressing, psyching, etc. myself out

I'm  at 9 dpo right now (well technically 10 dpo, if you consider the fact that it's 1:15am right now) and I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but it's hard since I have this nausea and some other "symptoms" right now.

And I'm trying not to freak myself out because I happened to come upon a list of symptoms for Endometriosis and many of them I have. It's making me paranoid. And the only way to fully diagnose it is with a laparoscopy. Eep! So here's a list of the 13 out of 22 symptoms that I do have: (a little TMI, sorry)

1) period pain- anywhere from mild-to severe, but I always get it

2)heavy periods- probably get this about 70-75% of the time

3)pain during or after intercourse- this happens probably 50% of the time

4)pelvic pain between periods- this happens pretty much every month, for a couple days here and there

5)intestinal pain- happens quite often

6)lower back pain- i have this pretty much constant every day

7)leg pain- usually i get this one day a week at least

8)infertility- obviously

9)abdominal bloating- all the time

10-13) some digestive problems that will probably gross you out


All the digestive symptoms I thought were due to my supposed IBS, but what if it's something else?
EEEEEEP

So basically just stressed out and waiting.

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This video made me cry

I came across this video randomly, and when I watched it I was bawling my eyes out, but then the end is empowering. I hope more people watch this because it is great!

What IF? Video


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Onward Testicles

Wow, I haven't written a post in awhile.

My DH and I were talking the other night and for some reason I said the word testicles. But I pronounced it testicleez. It sounds like a Greek god or something. Like Testicles is the god of sperm or balls or something, and he is one of Zeus's sons. Zeus says "Come hither young Testicles" (actually DH said that part). What would be his powers? I don't even wanna know....