Freaking, stressing, psyching, etc. myself out

I'm  at 9 dpo right now (well technically 10 dpo, if you consider the fact that it's 1:15am right now) and I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but it's hard since I have this nausea and some other "symptoms" right now.

And I'm trying not to freak myself out because I happened to come upon a list of symptoms for Endometriosis and many of them I have. It's making me paranoid. And the only way to fully diagnose it is with a laparoscopy. Eep! So here's a list of the 13 out of 22 symptoms that I do have: (a little TMI, sorry)

1) period pain- anywhere from mild-to severe, but I always get it

2)heavy periods- probably get this about 70-75% of the time

3)pain during or after intercourse- this happens probably 50% of the time

4)pelvic pain between periods- this happens pretty much every month, for a couple days here and there

5)intestinal pain- happens quite often

6)lower back pain- i have this pretty much constant every day

7)leg pain- usually i get this one day a week at least

8)infertility- obviously

9)abdominal bloating- all the time

10-13) some digestive problems that will probably gross you out


All the digestive symptoms I thought were due to my supposed IBS, but what if it's something else?
EEEEEEP

So basically just stressed out and waiting.

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This video made me cry

I came across this video randomly, and when I watched it I was bawling my eyes out, but then the end is empowering. I hope more people watch this because it is great!

What IF? Video


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Onward Testicles

Wow, I haven't written a post in awhile.

My DH and I were talking the other night and for some reason I said the word testicles. But I pronounced it testicleez. It sounds like a Greek god or something. Like Testicles is the god of sperm or balls or something, and he is one of Zeus's sons. Zeus says "Come hither young Testicles" (actually DH said that part). What would be his powers? I don't even wanna know....